Winter Wonderland

★☆★☆// Wednesday, March 31, 2010 [ 6:04 PM ] 0 problem

Hmm....i better take this time to clear everything....

Words that i wrote yesterday night...its jus inner thoughts that makes my moodswings come up.
Hmm...making it smaller....

Why am i always the one without big presents from friends?
It felt as though i am to celebrate it on my own...
Why does it have to be this way?
I never felt loved and I never will...
'Cause Everyone goes for looks,
Maybe someday,I can quit being their friend...
Somehow and somewhat, they never feel that my tears are for them,
They never felt it and never will...
I always think a lot on what they ever think about me.
I always tried being someone who they can have fun with.\But it always have to turn out something different.
Seeing them play together makes me jealous,
Now I know how Chao Lei feels when i paly-ed Happily with Germaine and Rachel,
I promised myself to start a better life,
but i guess...
I cannot change my crybaby heart,huh....
Now i dont even know who i can lend on when i cry.
Its like, everybody remembers all their friends' birthday but not mine,why?
Who am i really to them?
I felt this way the first time,
I hope it will be my first and last time I am feeling like this
'Cause this feeling...
never felt any better....

m/♥ o.r. r/♥