| Millie.J Felicia Queenie Jami.S | Germaine Crystal.C friend friend |
you this jerk.. I hate you, ): where were you when i need you all these times? ):
Now i know you think she's more important to you than me as a friend, so all these times, i wasn't really what you call, a best and true friend? I know i wasn't there for you, i know i never once waited for you when you wish i would, I know.. you must have hated me for all that..
I know you were with me, trying to pull me when i dashed across the road, almost getting knocked down by a car, I know you waited for me when i asked you not to, and you insisted, I know you're there for me when i walked out of a store, with a pen unpaid, you walked back with me to the store just to pay, and i know you're there for me, because.. I cried all day, you made me laugh.. you always knew you could put a smile on me..
Why are you ignoring me now? ): I miss who i was with you.. I miss how you used to proudly say "See, they're not your true friend, I am." I miss that mischievous smile that i see for one year.. I miss how you used to play tricks on my clique and i followed along, just because we were always sticking around each other, i miss how you used to laugh at me when i scored lower than you for a common test, I missed how happy we were, just chatting, just sitting next to each other in silence, i miss how you say you're not used to my new class sitting position, lastly.. I miss how you'll always try to convinced me to go to events that you wanted to go and i went along..
i miss you. i really do..
They're better for you, i know it, ever since they did their music project with you, ever since you sang with them, ever since.. i wasn't in a group as you.. i knew.. they're gonna replaced everything i used to do with you. they'll lend you their phones, they'll go to lunch breaks with you, they'll wait for you, they'll chat with you, they'll bring more happiness to you than what i could give to you.. they'll replace me and then give you the smile that's always on your face when we used to be together, side by side..
): I really, really, really treasured this friendship, more than you think i'll treasure.. I hate how you say we're enemies.. i hate how you say if i'm going on the outing, you won't go just because we're "enemies".. how did we ended up like this anyway.. i miss you so much, so much that i started hearing your voice in my head, when i hear a song.
My clique members all say that you're still concerned about me, i doubt that.. if you do, why must you ask her to comfort me when i cried because of my failed math paper? why you never tried approaching me just to ask how i fare in my exams.. i hate how you indirectly asked them about my scores..
I hate how you've taken up such a big part of my life..
i really miss you, i really do.. ):
xoxo,
Michiko.