| Millie.J Felicia Queenie Jami.S | Germaine Crystal.C friend friend |
I'm back, yes, like finally. T_T I miss blogging. >< Anyway, blogging rocks okay? \m/
And I failed almosst all my test. ;~; *le cries*
I don't feel forgotten, I feel unimportant to people, even to everyone.. Forget it, no one really cares..
Yeah, I feel unimportant and forgotten, but who cares, I'm not pretty. I'm not kind. I'm not that sweet girl that everyone in class adores. I won't freaking hell get a boyfriend even as I grow older. So what? It doesn't matter okay? If it does, you should just jump off a cliff, I'm not here to pleased you. I swear, everyone should feel important, I feel left out, my friends feel left out, so what? It's not like we care. I rather us be just US, the real us, than to be someone who seems to be those people that is here to serve, we're not servants. End of story, fullstop.
{ Sometimes, people don't judge your appearance, they judge you for who you really are. }
I'm not that person, you got me all wrong. ): I miss you, but I miss us more.
It's not that I don't give him and I a chance, I really can't handle, I move on faster than anyone from heartaches. I'm a bad person. I'm just.. I just don't think I can handle it. *sigh* I see couples acting all sweet, all lovey dovey, it doesn't make me cringe, it just make me miss us more. From everything, at the start of day one in the year 2010, being strangers, to being acquaintances, to being friends, and then we end up being best friends. I cringe at the sight of loving couples. It makes me miss us more..
{ I really miss you. I'm sorry, I really am. I want to talk to you again. }
Same time, last year and this. It's really different. It's a whole new game of Life we're playing now.
Combined Science student, someone taking Principles of accounts, learning Design&Tech, a few subjects which totally describes me. Triple Sciences student, someone who is the source of envy for all student. It's stressful though. I'm glad I'm a combined science student. I don't know why, but.. being a combined science student sucks too.. It really do. I never felt so stressful, my studies didn't deproved this much before, I didn't had fainting spells before, I never skipped my meals, just for homework. So I totally understand how they feel. I mean, we seem relaxed but we're really stressed up too. That's why I always wake up to a day where I hope to roleplay whole day again, <3
{ Thanks for making my day yesterday. <3 It was the best day for me. I miss you.
If there is anyone i can't afford to lose, I can't afford to lose them. <3
Aww, many people are so sweet! XD I swear, but. XD I really can't live without Grace, Millie, Rebecca, Ariel, Queenie, Felicia, Michelle, Fany!!, Crystal and loads more. I'm so lazy to even list it out! XD They're the best! They went through alot of me. I owe a lot to Felicia. <3 Felicia! Thanks for everything!! <3 I think.. They're my precious treasures i dug out. 8D Ariel is such a cutie pie!!!! omg!!! XD *spazz*
{ Thanks guys, for everything you did for me. Even if you did little, you did helped. Thanks. I owe a lot to Grace and Felicia. Thanks babes. <3 }
The thing i hate about you is just your attitude.
Just a bitch hidden under that ugly appearance. What do you want? Hate me, the one and only me ONLY. not the people who are friends with me. :3
{ Sometimes, I just want to give you a smack that you'll fly out of the window }
A SHOUT OUT TO ALL MY BELOVED PEOPLE!! XD
So tired.. ;~~~; Will stop here. And I'm blogging based on pictures. XD blog again soon!!
I know you're reading so, HI. XD
Michiko.
{ Sending you a video on Seohyun's sweet voice. }
Yes, I don't like people viewing the video I just like them to press the play button and enjoy the music. XD
★☆★☆// No matter where live takes us, nothing can break us apart - You know it's true, I just wanna be with you Thursday, February 23, 2012 [ 9:00 PM ] 0 problem
I have nothing to blog though.. D:
Ah, Fandom bashing. :3
I'll blog tomorrow or something. T^T I'm so tired and lazyyyyy.
Michiko.
★☆★☆// Sunday, February 19, 2012 [ 2:43 PM ] 0 problem
Hi. Am here, to just give a few updates on my fucking screwed up life, yes, it's screwed, no matter how many times i tell people that their life sucks. Because I tend to go, "Fuck your life." now. Like sian niah lorh. I haven't been doing normal life blogging lah. .___. Got too many things to think about lah, especially __________. Okay, nevermind. Moving on~
V.Day's fine, except it creeps me out. I feel so burdened. T_T no offence people. I feel burdened now. I haven't been myself ever since that day. I'll make sure to forget about White V.Day, and celebrate Black V.Day. Shut up. .__. I know he'll be hurt, so don't remind me. Rejection is always there. okay? O:
^ like fuck lah. O_O how can I trust that guy, when he freaking hell keep pranking me? Like dafuq? Okay, shutting my thoughts up, but i'm gonna reject everything okay? I wanna avoid him lah. Like, seriously. .__. I just wanna concentrate on studies and my auditions!! And IF* i ever get listed, i would be fucking excited to debut and i'll miss everything here, but fuck it. I'm just gonna concentrate on hoping i'll be a hallyu star. Don't know the meaning of Hallyu Star, google it up or just.. i don't know. .___. or just screw your life up. 8D
*note: the word "if" is in bold
^ they are fucking awesome, I don't know lah, i just like Selena's quote, i don't like her. OTL. Selena fans, hate me all you want, it's in association with Justin Bieber, but i don't really hate Justin Bieber though. He's still okay (Y) I'm one percent bieber fan. *nods*
I still don't know why people like Justin Bieber. .___.
I don't care le lah. .__. He ask me, I reject, simple lah. he can carry on waiting lah. I just don't want to go into a relationship lah, friendship awkward jiu awkward lah, like i can help it~ I got a lot of thoughts about it, i can't study, i can't eat, i can't rest properly, i can't even talk to my sisters in private. That's why i say, any guys that's gonna be in a relationship with me gets all insecure. .___. aiya, fuck lah, why r/s so complicated one?! like having GYS helps. ._________. okay, fuck. my. screwed. up. life.
Next issue, Common test week. .___. fml!!! D: Totally didn't study, so, i'm hoping for my first F9 in my report. .___. aish, procrastinating doesn't help, especially since the subject is Social studies, aish, who cares!! T^T I did great for my previous test w/o studying much okay? :D FUCKING PROUD! 8|
Okay, I'm gonna say, I fucking hell love Millie, Rebecca, Grace, Felicia, Rachel, Nadiah, Belle, Ariel and Queenie(in no order <3 ) to death okay? And I love my roleplay people, especially Ssulbaby(Michelle!!! <3) and Fany! ( :'D My twin!! XD ). They made my life so wonderful okay? :'D I swear, I won't be me, if it weren't for them. <3 LOVE YOU GUYS!! <3shit okay? I didn't know Blogger doesn't support Gif picture. == Okay, heck care about that first, Sooyoung's fucking gorgeous! <3 okay, next, i'm gonna do a twitter trend. :3
#10RandomThingsAboutMe
#1- I dance! XD I'm a self-taught dancer and fucking proud of it. XD And Dancing doesn't run in my family, My mom did Dance last time, I used to be a Chinese Dancer myself( fuck, start laughing at me. I dgaf) and now I'm a Kpop-dancer. OwO My sister and my brother are currently part of one of the Singapore's biggest Kids Hiphop crew. YOU JELLY?! XD And I'm currently loving Hiphop and Kpop dances because Dancing's my fucking most precious passion of mine. Singing is my passion too. <3 fuck, you don't know what i go through when i can't dance or sing. OAO Suck it up people. We're just talented. 8|
#2 - I'm a roleplayer. You jelly? :3 I swear, why didn't i come into contact with Roleplaying before!!! OAO Now i'm a proud admin and a proud roleplayer of Neverending Paradise Roleplay. :3
#3 - I fucking love Walt Disney. You jelly? Disney is life okay?! Walt Disney is like, the best place where you can find many inspiring quotes. I love Disney, call me childish, but i'm still listening to HSM. :3
#4 - I'm effing unpredictable. I can be happy one moment, and then upset one moment. Hate me? Haters gon' hate, Love me, I'll return the favour. <3
#5 - I'm not pretty, not cute, not funny, I just like seeing people laugh because of my words. :3 I'm not an angel, I'm a devil in disguise, step over me? You'll pay double. :3
#6 - I'm not a good girlfriend material for the boys. Keep that in mind. Every guy will be insecure around me, plus, Even if it's my personality that attracts guys, i still think I'm not a girlfriend material, BUT!! I'm a good girlfriend material to the girls. OwO I like talking and hanging out with them. Boys make me go.. eww now. >< sorry, dear.
#7 - I can bash your idols, really really badly. I'll come to this later. :3 I have a lot a lot to say about this. I'll talk about this tomorrow. *nods* 8|
#8 - I don't like being compared or pitied. I feel like a beggar who needs to be pitied, and I don't feel the need to be compared over. I'm human, not a robot. So stop comparing. e___e
#9 - I listen to EPOP and I swear, I'm only a fan of Taylor Swift, Katy Perry and Britney Spears. Because I find other EPOP singers suckish. *nods*
#10 - I'm an aries, one that you can never fall in love too hard with. I make you suffer, I'll leave you hanging, and I forget everything you do for me in split seconds. ^^ I'm fucking proud to be an aries.
lastly, I'm freaking proud of my siblings. XD
Enjoy! ^^
Yours truly,
Michiko. <3
★☆★☆// I know you stalked me. XD Just kidding! ^^ Wednesday, February 15, 2012 [ 6:32 PM ] 0 problem
Hey! I'm gonna just blog randomly today. :3
so..
I'm gonna fail many common tests, it's only the second month!! D: OTL But i swear, i had a lot of surprises and fun! ^^
So yeah, for english as well, one of my favourite subjects!! D: so.. After talking to Ssulbaby, I wrote this, I swear, it's not good and it's just only the intro. T^T
Borrowed Time;
Borrowed time; something you wish you could borrow to change something or something you wish to borrow and hopefully, do the things you weren't able to complete. Everyone spent their twentyfour hours differently, some spent them studying, some spent them playing, but deep under, everyone wants to borrow extra time, to be able to pause the time, to amend their mistakes. Some just wants to borrow time, simply because, well, because they want to spend extra time with their loved ones.
Borrowed time; It's something you'll never get, because if everyone borrows time, is there anyone willing to return what they've borrowed?
Okay lah.. idiotic right? It didn't even make sense!! O_O then now must write on "LOVE".. worse.. D: okay lah, i stop here first okay? XD
★☆★☆// Happy Propose Day To- Wait, there isn't US. Wednesday, February 8, 2012 [ 10:22 PM ] 0 problem
Ah, yesh, I'm changing my blogskin soon. <3
I mean HAHA. Anyway, HI. ^^ Second blogpost for the week, but yeah, I'm not focusing on other stuffs like school.
I'll rant.
Starting.. NOW.
Life isn't fair, okay? It never was, I used to think you and Her are two different person. You two ended up going together, talking together, doing things together. What am I? Invisible? ):
I can't believe you're like that, you were sitting with me, then you moved to sit with her? What? Weather's too hot? or because I don't talk to you guys anymore? Seriously, it's like, painting what we used to have on a canvas, and then you think it's ugly, you're trying to auction it off. >< Seriously, It's not that I don't like it, It's just, it's been.. a month.. a month! It's not that I'm jealous.. I'm just feeling hurt, really hurt.. you guys are like him. He ignored me for fucking four months now, I'm glad I'm able to let go of everything, everything we do. Why?
Look, I don't care anymore.. I'm tired of getting hurt again and again, and then, things goes sour, I'm tired, you know what? Your life must have been much more brighter when I'm dead. Look, if I'm gonna remain as your bestfriends, just, freaking hell accept that I'm changing, I'm feeling the change in me already.. I hate that change. I hate it, I fucking hate it. I hate how I'm becoming another person. Everything sucks when that happens.. Maybe because we see each other almost everyday, that's why we judge each other, I'm tired of doing that.. I don't think I can call you my family like how immediately I think of my internet friends. I now dare call them my family, because.. At least.. when I'm sad, they're there, I mean, I don't mind being your listeners, but sometimes.. I just want someone to listen to me.. that's all.. What's so difficult about that? and I'm really tired..
Really tired of..
Watching you write the words "Best Friends" over and over and over again on a piece
of paper,
because that paper's been soaked in rain water for far too long,
the ink smudged,
I can't even see the word "Friends" clearly now..
I'm tired of everything, but when I think of friends like Ssulbaby, Taemin, Twin, everyone i know from my roleplay, I know, I'll live, for them, and for me..
xoxo,
Michiko/
★☆★☆// You'll be happier if I'm gone. Monday, February 6, 2012 [ 4:55 PM ] 0 problem
How's life? Fine i guess.
not expecting you to feel sad for me if i'm gone anyway.. I'm not worth than her.
You changed. really changed. never expected that within the last two years as your friend, I can see the change in you. You weren't like this before.. I miss the old you, I never really liked the new you.
I'll forever remember what I said today, I'll remember every words, I always remember what happened between us.. I never knew you were that kind of person. I must be blind to even know you.
I feel every change I had, it's not like you'll care, you guys never did. You guys left me hanging, I moved on, we moved on as a group. It's for the best.
I wonder if you'll remember if i die, nah, i doubt so. You never remember anything about us anyway.