Winter Wonderland

★☆★☆// Happy Propose Day To- Wait, there isn't US. Wednesday, February 8, 2012 [ 10:22 PM ] 0 problem

Ah, yesh, I'm changing my blogskin soon. <3

I mean HAHA. Anyway, HI. ^^ Second blogpost for the week, but yeah, I'm not focusing on other stuffs like school.

I'll rant.

Starting.. NOW.

Life isn't fair, okay? It never was, I used to think you and Her are two different person. You two ended up going together, talking together, doing things together. What am I? Invisible? ):

I can't believe you're like that, you were sitting with me, then you moved to sit with her? What? Weather's too hot? or because I don't talk to you guys anymore? Seriously, it's like, painting what we used to have on a canvas, and then you think it's ugly, you're trying to auction it off. >< Seriously, It's not that I don't like it, It's just, it's been.. a month.. a month! It's not that I'm jealous.. I'm just feeling hurt, really hurt.. you guys are like him. He ignored me for fucking four months now, I'm glad I'm able to let go of everything, everything we do. Why?

Look, I don't care anymore.. I'm tired of getting hurt again and again, and then, things goes sour, I'm tired, you know what? Your life must have been much more brighter when I'm dead. Look, if I'm gonna remain as your bestfriends, just, freaking hell accept that I'm changing, I'm feeling the change in me already.. I hate that change. I hate it, I fucking hate it. I hate how I'm becoming another person. Everything sucks when that happens.. Maybe because we see each other almost everyday, that's why we judge each other, I'm tired of doing that.. I don't think I can call you my family like how immediately I think of my internet friends. I now dare call them my family, because.. At least.. when I'm sad, they're there, I mean, I don't mind being your listeners, but sometimes.. I just want someone to listen to me.. that's all.. What's so difficult about that? and I'm really tired..

Really tired of..

Watching you write the words "Best Friends" over and over and over again on a piece

of paper,

because that paper's been soaked in rain water for far too long,

the ink smudged,

I can't even see the word "Friends" clearly now..

I'm tired of everything, but when I think of friends like Ssulbaby, Taemin, Twin, everyone i know from my roleplay, I know, I'll live, for them, and for me..

xoxo,

Michiko/