Why do i say so? Well, firstly, I'm always off borrowing money from my friends. Second, i can never seem to return them and I still borrowed from them. Third, I just feel like I'm a burden. I can never do anything.. I can never do anyone proud, sure, in my ability with dances, yeah, like that would get me far in life. I see everyone's sad faces when they got back their results, they scored better than I do, yet, they feel sad, I felt nothing, absolutely nothing except for the fact that I'm a burden, I'm a shameful idiot, I'm someone who will never succeed in life.

it's like, crying has become a part of me, i felt myself distancing from everyone, it's as though, everyone's better than me, and I'm the only one who can't do anything right. Just because life said that everyone's life is unfair, doesn't meant that mine's any better. my results, yeah, sure, I can get somewhere. Some place where everyone's of a higher level than me. Intensive lessons, intensive studying.. what's the point?

Returning friends of their money, still, I feel so guilty.

Owing friends of their birthday presents, still, I feel so bad.

Having friends promising they'll always be there for me, still, I feel so lonely.

I feel so lonely, till the fact that I've became selfish, hoping to get even more attention than before.

Seeing my friends angry, still, I feel so upset.

If I could, I'm willing to send everyone a message, telling them.. how sorry I am, for always relying on them, for always borrowing money from despite knowing they don't have enough..

all in all,

I'm sorry..

for being such a burden..